Determination

I worked on my office/studio a bit yesterday. Now that the room is painted (Thanks Tom!). I can really start to put my things away and get organized. I hung shelves and put up my dry erase board. On my board is the word “Determination.” I keep it there as a constant reminder to never give up on my dreams. It’s funny, I’ve been yearning to put that board up, and I think it’s because I needed that word, much more than needing a place to write down my to do list. That word feeds me. I read Angela’s post today and it’s of a similar subject. About finding your way and not getting lost, about being present. That word, determination, it holds all of these meanings for me. It’s like a beacon. Now that I am having a child, it holds an even stronger meaning. I am my child’s role model. How I choose to live my life will serve as an example for her. And so there is an even greater importance on the word. I am so excited to start this next big phase in my life. I think I’m going to be good at it. As long as I have my word to guide me, I will figure it out.

Tom hasn’t made much music since we moved, just as I haven’t made much art. I told him I wished I could be a better muse for him. I wanted to know what I could do to help him write more music. He said the best thing I can do is to get my art practice back up and running. And so I must. I had less than zero energy over the last week or so, but yesterday it came back. The New American Paintings deadline approaches. I am putting a piece in an auction this weekend. Things are slowly bubbling. Two more months of work, then it’s off to the wild blue yonder for me. I’ll learn how to be a mommy, and I’ll learn how to get a little work done in between baby naps.


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