Forever Stubborn

I was reading a Twitter conversation between two programmers a couple months ago. One of them said “I’m not a good programmer, I’m just stubborn.” I completely related and I’ve had that statement on my mind ever since. Despite the dozens and dozens of tutorials over the last few months, despite building my own projects, writing out code with pen and paper, dreaming nonsensical dreams about key-value pairs, playing coding games with my kid, reading at night until my eyes close on me, I still feel like a bad programmer. But I am not giving up, ever. OK? Never. Never ever.

I had an interview today. I was given a logic test. I eventually answered it but I’m embarrassed at how long it took me to answer it. After the interview I went on Amazon and looked up logic puzzle books. I looked for websites with logic puzzles. I thought, well, I’ve uncovered this inadequacy and now I know it’s there, have to do something about it. Stubborn. Stubborn. Stubborn. Determined and stubborn until the day I die.

I’d love to sit and chat some more about my stubbornness, but I have to get back to my umpteenth Javascript class.