I have been experiencing vertigo off and on for a year. I have a Dr. Appointment but I always have to ask Dr. Google. This is what Doctor Google told me: This is what BPPV is: “Benign paroxysmal positional vertigo (BPPV) is a disorder arising from a problem in the inner ear. Symptoms are repeated, […]
I just had a thought that my working and studying and interviewing and all the things I’m doing to get back into tech is a lot like a really long backpacking trip through steep mountain passes. I think I am at the crest of whatever climb I am on, only to discover that the top of your […]
Some photos of our quick weekend trip to Manzanita, Cannon Beach and Astoria Oregon. Valentine’s Day 2016.
Prayer for a Marriage When we are old one night and the moon arcs over the house like an antique China saucer and the teacup sun follows somewhere far behind I hope the stars deepen to a shine so bright you could read by it if you liked and the sadness we will have known […]
What insecurities do you carry around with you from your past? Does the flushing heat of past embarrassments sit right underneath your cheeks, waiting to surface? When you talk to a pretty woman, does the awkward, nerdy boy try to force it’s way out your mouth, trying to make a fool of you? Or do […]
Page of Fire – Mastery of Action Playfulness Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be, and when we recognize this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play. The woman in this card is celebrating the joy of being alive, like a butterfly that has emerged from […]
We sit across from each other at the restaurant. You’re staring at your device. I try to tell you about my day but you don’t hear me. I get up to go to the bathroom. At every table there are people, looking at each other, talking to one another. They look engaged. They look connected. […]
Truth already exists, you cannot seek to find it. Seek the lie, and in finding the lie, it vanishes. Lies are concealing truths. Covered in debris, truths are always present, just cluttered with lies that need to be cleared away.
Dream: the streets were flooded and lots of fish had swum upstream in the floods. They were gorgeous, red-orange lionhead goldfish and at first I thought, how beautiful. But soon I realized they would all die unless I collected them in buckets and brought them back to the ponds they came from. I tried to […]
On this day I want to talk about a few things I am grateful for at this moment. My husband, who is eternally patient and resilient. He is my steady anchor in a dark sea as well as calm waters. At times he is so easy, it startles me how quickly we can turn things […]
I’m really happy right now.
Well, 2013 was quite a year. Juniper was in daycare just 10 hours a week at the start of 2013, I was applying to grad school, Tom was finishing up his album. We went to Florida, I got into grad school, and here we are. Juniper is in a new daycare where she does full […]
My birthday this year was quiet and unassuming. We had a nice dinner at home the night before and the day of my birthday we went out to a local place where the food isn’t that good but there’s a play area so we can eat and relax while Juniper plays. I got some good […]
Here I sit, sweaty, tear stained toddler snoring on my chest. She’s miserable with pink eye. I’m assuming it hurts when she tries to close her eyes and go to sleep but doesn’t bother her otherwise, because when she’s not crying and clinging to me and keeping me from much needed sleep, she’s full of […]
Warning, major whine fest ahead. It’s amazing that I’m not asleep right now, but it is what it is. I felt like writing this down so I don’t forget just how horrible things are right now. To put it in perspective, we’re mostly healthy, barring some stubborn pneumonia, so horrible is all relative. Our nightly […]
I was diagnosed with pneumonia a week ago tomorrow. The doctor thinks I was walking around with it for a good long while. I rested all week as best as I could. Tom stayed home from work all week to help take Juniper to daycare and take care of the dog so I could sleep. […]
I’m feeling kinda rough. I just need a little love and reassurance. I need to know I’m doing a good job and I’m loved. Today I saw a happy light on sale for $40 at Costco and I just happened to have a $50 Amex gift card in my pocket. It seems like a nice […]
I’ve been dieing for some time alone to write down all things things on my mind relating to my series. I got that chance last night and I blew it. I got to my regular working spot, ordered by pint, and opened up a Google doc. I was completely blank. Nothing going on upstairs whatsoever. […]
I had my first mammogram last week. They warned me this was common, and not to panic, but they found something in the mammogram and they needed to take a closer look. I needed to come in for another mammogram, a ct scan and possibly an ultrasound. Let me tell you, I was scared. I […]